Quilter’s Block

There are some days when the words and ideas come easy, and then there are days like today when I doubt I’ll ever have an idea again. I’m pretty sure I have the beginnings of a case of quilter’s block; I’m lost in the wash of uncertainty. Yeah, I know I just finished two books, but I just feel kinda emptied out, a shell.

I spent an hour this morning just trying to think, trying to latch on to the beginnings of an idea for a next quilt. Know what I came up with? Nothing. Coming up blank is a rare occurrence for me, so it is a bit unsettling, unnerving even. I’m sure I could come up with some patchwork to put together, but I’ve gone so far down this path of conceptualism that there’s no coming back. And right now all the ideas that I have just seem to small in the face of this horrible world.

Quilting for me is a way of screaming in the dark, fighting back against the existential dread that comes with being in this world right now. Maybe I’m asking too much of my quilting, trying to get it to say too much, making it into my sole therapist. But I don’t think I can help it; this is what I do.

So I guess I’m just going to have to get up early every morning and sit and think until the ideas come back. I just need to put in the hours and do the work. As J.M.W. Turner said, “I know of no genius but the genius of hard work.” 

I’ve had a week off since the end of editing, so it’s time to get back to work. Idle hands are the devil’s playground, or something like that…

Much love.

-t

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Lucky

I am ridiculously lucky. 

You may well ask why…

Well, when I was still just pitching Quilt Out Loud I had to put together what they call a mood board as part of the package. Mine included maps and graphs, album covers and punk posters, type treatments and favorite words. In short I put the jumble of my brain into a visible form. But that’s not the lucky part…

The lucky part is the fact that C&T assigned my book to April (last name withheld). I don’t think anyone I’ve worked with has truly grokked my style as thoroughly as April has. Seriously, it reminds me so much of what I was doing back in my design professor days. It is unorthodox and a bit edgy, a little punk rock but with excellent clarity. But it is not just surface affect; it is absolutely content forward. 

This book has such a funky flow, but it is absolutely cohesive. It is everything I love about good book design. It is a pleasure just to look at it (though I’d like to flatter myself that it is worth reading too). April took my quilts and my works and through them through a blender and absolutely nailed this book. All the formulae went out the window and some serious design chops were displayed. 

I can’t wait for this book to hit the world. 

BAM!

Much love.

-t

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On Boredom

Books are strange things. You work and work and then work some more and then you wait. In my mind the next book is done, but in reality it has yet started its journey. I’m not complaining; I love doing books and feel lucky that people keep letting me make them. It’s just this interstitial period, between going to press and going to market that drives me a little batty. 

You see, I don’t wait well. It’s not that I Iack patience. I’m a quilter for Pete’s sake; I have no problem spending days and days cutting things apart and putting them back together. But this isn’t a tedious task; it’s a kind of suspended animation, a waiting with nothing to do. 

Maybe my gloom is because the kids have gone back to school at the exact time that I ran out of work on this baby. I’ve grown so accustomed to having them both hanging around – the book and my children. The house has grown so quiet, so still, at least during school hours. 

I need another project, but I don’t know what to start. Seeing that I have not one, but two books coming out early next year it’s going to be a while before I can get going on another. I’m kinda quilted out after making a bazillion new quilts for said book. I should probably take up knitting, but I am entirely helpless on that front; turning yarn into a thing truly seems like a mystical dark art.

So maybe I’ll come back here, to this blog that has lain fallow for the last few years. Once upon a time I loved blogging out into the ether so others could possibly read and maybe even relate. Yeah, that’s probably what I need to do, get myself back into the habit of writing every day. Not on a single project like the book (or the other book), but just writing about whatever stuff happens to be bouncing around my brain. Maybe it will even quiet things down in there so I can actually sleep at night…

Much love.

-t

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Merry Xmas and stuff. May this evening not be filled with hours of wrapping. We actually got everything done with a day to spare…

Merry Xmas and stuff. May this evening not be filled with hours of wrapping. We actually got everything done with a day to spare…

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I love this color combo, and tomorrow I get to pick up my sewing machine from being serviced so I finally get to appliqué some letters!!!

I love this color combo, and tomorrow I get to pick up my sewing machine from being serviced so I finally get to appliqué some letters!!!

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This Xmas…

This Xmas the daughter has asked for a mix CD of female-led punk bands. I don’t think I could be prouder. But, to throw things out to the hive mind here is my list. Questions? Comments? What am I missing? What did I hit on the nail?

Blitzkrieg Bop – Shonen Knife

Birthday – Sugarcubes

Spellbound – Siouxsie and the Banshees

Hyperballad – Bjork

Typical Girls – The Slits

I Know What Boys Like – The Waitresses

Dig Me Out – Sleater Kinney

Double Dare Ya – Bikini Kill

Rebel Girl – Bikini Kill

Lola – The Raincoats

Heart of Glass – Blondie

Cherry Bomb – The Runaways

Pretend We’re Dead – L7

Sweet ’69 – Babes in Toyland

Kids In America – The Muffs

Take It Off – The Donnas          

Nausea – X

Kool Thing – Sonic Youth

Gloria – Patti Smith

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Listening to Parliament and writing all the words…

Listening to Parliament and writing all the words…

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De-creasing all the quilt going into my next show…

De-creasing all the quilt going into my next show…

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