You may not believe this, but I am shy. Seriously, I am. I trail my darling wife around at parties afraid to be on my own. Heck, I trail Bee around at kiddie events, nervous about being left alone with other adults. I am seriously shy.

There is one exception to that though. I love talking about design, which is what gets me through so much of life, especially Quilt Market and the like. I love talking about what I am working on, and hearing about what other people are doing. I could talk fabric design for hours and hours and hours.

In some ways I was the stereotypical professor. Find me walking across campus and I was like as not to be head down hoping not to bump into anyone (literally and figuratively), but put me at the front of the class and I could go, non-stop, for three straight hours. The thing is, I love talking about my work, but I hate talking about me.

This, leads to why I have been so bad about posting as of late. Back before I was officially doing anything I loved posting about what I was doing, no matter how small or whatever. I just liked talking about stuff. As I often say, Yay Stuff!!!

Now that I have stuff out there, you know, for sale and stuff I seem to be turning shy. Here’s another little secret, I hate self-promotion. I’ve had people tell me that I am good at it, but I think that is because I’m not really doing it. I like hanging out here in digital land, with people I respect and care about. I have a crap-load of fun on Twitter with the fabric & sewing crowd, and I learn a hell of a lot from them.

But then I have a line of fabric come out, or a new set of patterns, and I probably ought to promote it or something, but I go all shy. I love sharing what I am doing, but hate when it seems like I am selling. I really, really don’t like selling. I don’t think I could possibly use the word really enough times to explain how much I don’t like selling, especially myself.

Thus, I post less. I hang out less. I avoid the posts I want to put up just because they will probably seem like selling just because there is stuff out there to buy. Right now I want to blurt out all over the place just how much I love Flock right now, but I just end up being shy.

If I weren’t broke I would totally hire a publicist. But then I’d probably just feel awful about having a publicist and get even more shy. Ah, the vicious circles are everywhere…

I think I would have made a good ostrich…


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9 Responses to Shy…

  1. 1
    Sharon says:

    Time to break out of that shyness 🙂
    We love seeing and hearing about you and your fabric lines and patterns.

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    Shannon says:

    I hear ya loud and clear! I went to a baby shower the other day without my husband and I barely knew what to do with myself…and just having a blog is a mental exercise for me! But we seriously do love hearing from you and we LOVE LOVE LOVE your fabric and quilty goodness!!

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    Cara Cesarik says:

    It is hard to ring your own horn, huh? You should promote Cosmic Burst and Mark can promote Flock — it is truly lovely. That way neither one of you have to feel funny talking about how awesome your designs are!!

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    Katy says:

    Oh I totally hear you! I tend to avoid parties, and cannot physically network well. I once went all the way to the US (from the UK) for a trip to see loads of friends, it was fine in 1s and 2s, but then I was presented with about 30 of them all together for one weekend, and I ended up hiding and hanging out with a table of 4 women I’d never spoken to before in my life (they were very nice at letting me hide with them lol) I love sharing what I’ve made and how (disasters included), but I’m really bad at taking compliments (probably partly because I’m always thinking ‘have you seen all the awesome stuff out there? This is just a happy accident!’) I might ostrich right along with you…

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    Your work is speaking for itself! Just keep doing what makes you happy and it will all come together.

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    Alison Glass says:

    Hi. I appreciate your thoughts, and I also know that people visit your site because they want to know stuff, from you. Hope you all have a good night!

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    Nicola Hesketh says:

    There is a great book called the Te of Piglet … it helps you to feel okay about being who you are, especially if you are a shy person. I love your work and think it speaks for itself.

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    Maggie Magee says:

    Thomas–Just want you to know that my local quilt shop in Chapel Hill NC has Pear Tree! Yay!

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    euphoria says:

    HA! Shy?? you’re stuff speaks for itself anyway… no need for an infomercial!
    can’t wait for sewing summit to see how shy you really are! LOL

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